i was born in 1985. i have been lying since i was a little kid. everyone wanted me to be one way. a normal boy. a straight boy. i was not that boy. i knew it. so i lied about everything. i had to hide my feelings. it was bad. i married a girl a while ago, marybeth. she was nice. i did it to be normal. to fit in. we have kids and a house. i was like an actor playing a part. the good dad, the professional guy. all fake though. inside i was scared all the time. scared someone would find out i was different. i used her to be safe. that part is bad.
i am 39 years old now. not that old, but old enough to know better. i had a moment recently, just a moment of quiet, where i thought about the next forty years. i don't want to live the rest of my life being a liar. i want my kids to know me. the real me. they are still young, but they are smart.
so i will tell them. i am gay. i always was. i hid this for like 30 years. it's tiring. i'm done hiding. i just can't do it anymore. what do you guys think i should do I always just get ignored of forums so im asking you people, please help me